So it's been a while since my last post...
Since then the most important things I've done was study and fight with my boyfriend. The latter only important because it totally messes with my brain.
The question on my mind is, "Why do guys have to be spoon-fed in relationships?"
Since my last serious boyfriend, I've had a few 'special' friends. Two of which stuck around, one of which i can now call my boyfreind of +1year.
So who has the broken heart? Well, the one who was left behind because he wasn't man enough to step up and claim me for himself. (In my mind i see myself as a 1850's maiden)
I've spoken to him quite a few times this past month and as he broached the subject of relationships, he had a sad tone in his voice, and told me he still thinks of me in his future.
His problem being our different religions and lifestyles, he doesn't want to complicate my life, so should carry on and be happy.
So I'm confused? Does he want me to be a part of his life or not?
I love him enough to let go and be there for him as a friend as he needs, but it seems that even though he says the same, he really can't do it.
He asked me to write a poem for him:
"Have you ever loved someone that it hurt?
Have you ever loved someone that you thought you'd die?
this may seem dramatic, but its the way I love you...
The love I have for you, takes my breath away and makes me want to burst...
Loving you brings me an undefined joy...
You may think I'm crazy, that's just me...
Have you ever loved someone so much that the sight of them shattered your heart into millions of pieces?
Have you ever loved someone so much that even though they've shattered your heart, just one glance from them, gives you the hope that one day you'll be together?
Have you ever loved someone so much that their smile can put all those pieces together and make you love them even more?
Have you ever loved someone so much that it takes a simple brush of their lips to seal your mended heart to theirs?
This is what you do to me each time and still my love for you grows...
Each time you kick me out, I feel as if my world is falling apart and I have to start from scratch to make you mine..."
This is what I used to feel, until I came to terms that we will never be...
Now... he will always be a part of me heart and being, but my heart belongs to the one to claimed it, cherishes and protects it.
Since then the most important things I've done was study and fight with my boyfriend. The latter only important because it totally messes with my brain.
The question on my mind is, "Why do guys have to be spoon-fed in relationships?"
Since my last serious boyfriend, I've had a few 'special' friends. Two of which stuck around, one of which i can now call my boyfreind of +1year.
So who has the broken heart? Well, the one who was left behind because he wasn't man enough to step up and claim me for himself. (In my mind i see myself as a 1850's maiden)
I've spoken to him quite a few times this past month and as he broached the subject of relationships, he had a sad tone in his voice, and told me he still thinks of me in his future.
His problem being our different religions and lifestyles, he doesn't want to complicate my life, so should carry on and be happy.
So I'm confused? Does he want me to be a part of his life or not?
I love him enough to let go and be there for him as a friend as he needs, but it seems that even though he says the same, he really can't do it.
He asked me to write a poem for him:
"Have you ever loved someone that it hurt?
Have you ever loved someone that you thought you'd die?
this may seem dramatic, but its the way I love you...
The love I have for you, takes my breath away and makes me want to burst...
Loving you brings me an undefined joy...
You may think I'm crazy, that's just me...
Have you ever loved someone so much that the sight of them shattered your heart into millions of pieces?
Have you ever loved someone so much that even though they've shattered your heart, just one glance from them, gives you the hope that one day you'll be together?
Have you ever loved someone so much that their smile can put all those pieces together and make you love them even more?
Have you ever loved someone so much that it takes a simple brush of their lips to seal your mended heart to theirs?
This is what you do to me each time and still my love for you grows...
Each time you kick me out, I feel as if my world is falling apart and I have to start from scratch to make you mine..."
This is what I used to feel, until I came to terms that we will never be...
Now... he will always be a part of me heart and being, but my heart belongs to the one to claimed it, cherishes and protects it.
